Monday, December 31, 2007

Awakening



Unlike others who came before you,
What I feel for you grew
Like a seed planted long before

Came out of the ground
With no warning whatsoever
A delightful surprise

Just as a flower
blossoms a bud at a time
My heart will embrace you

No hurry, no noise
Slowly, as the sun rises and sets
And just as certain

*** disclaimer: this poem was written today for no one in particular. really. ***




Holiday Blues

There are a lot of things I am trying to process right now. Stuff that need to be dealt with. Feelings that I thought were dead or non-existent but were hibernating in my heart all along.

One big revelation for me this holiday season is that I've been looking to particular people to fulfill needs that now I realize only God can fulfill. I didn't think this was so until I prayed to God to heal me of my brokenness and asked Him to let any unforgiven hurts surface. I was in for a surprise because the very next day - it came out like I stepped on a mine.

I never realized how high a wall I built around me just to keep myself from being hurt but I ended up making decisions that were completely wrong because the walls were so high I could not see where I was going.

If you're reading this, none of this might make sense to you. But I guess although I need for this to be just between me and God, I also need to express in writing all of these things I am going through.

The great thing about going through times like this is that because I know now what's hurt me, I can also forgive.

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Breakfast in Tagaytay

Okay.. so I'm beginning to like going on road trips to Tagaytay.

If you know me well, you know that I don't like traveling. Okay, let me qualify.. I don't like traveling much. I mean, I absolutely love Boracay! And now I'm starting to like Tagaytay as well. I only like to go to places that are tried and tested. I'm not into adventure much (something I am really trying to overcome) as you can tell.

Here are some pictures from our trip:

first we attended the sambang gabi (dawn service) at 430AM at the Fort

yummy, yummy breakfast buffet at Josephine's


Marge & Ria

M & Carlo

Meg's Pregnant Look

Marge & I

We're going back again sometime next week. Hopefully, we'll have cooler weather (it wasn't so cold when we went Saturday) and I think we'll get the lunch buffet instead of the breakfast buffet the next time around.

Anyone wanna go with us? :)

For more pictures, click HERE.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Moving On and Moving Back


When I started working for Victory a year and a half ago, I thought I would work there forever.

It was truly a dream come true for me to have been given an opportunity to work full time for the ministry, to have been able to work with the people I've had the pleasure to work with these past 18 months. I have learned so much and the relationships I have with the friends and mentors I have now are invaluable.

One year and eight months ago, I was confused and hurt. I had a job that I loved and was pretty good at. I was living away from my family, serving as a volunteer in different ministries in church, was a small group leader, ministering to single women. I had a great relationship with my Mom, was able to see my siblings every weekend, and what I was doing from Mondays to Fridays was something I loved doing.

Then one day, things had to change. I had to decide to move back home, had to resign from work, had to take on a job I had no idea how to do. It was all my choice. I could have said "no." But God promised me and reassured it was not a mistake, and so I squeezed my eyes shut, and jumped.

I fell into depression for a while. I was confused and unhappy. I didn't understand why I was made to leave the life I loved to live a life I did not want. I cried out to God for an explanation. I just wanted to know why I was there. One day, I was able to silence the whining and the tantrums and heard God's patient voice. Finally, I got what He was trying to teach me all that time.

Then it happened. Three months after leaving Summit, I got a job working for Victory.

Even now, I am amazed at how God orchestrated everything.

So, like I said, after a year and a half, I'm leaving my job at Victory and moving on to something well... not so new... I'm moving back to Summit, to that place I left so suddenly some two years ago.

I'm excited. This all happened quickly. It was not planned. But everything just fell into place. Another exciting journey ahead of me.

Thank You, God.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

That could've been any one of us


A co-worker told me about a shooting incident at a mall in the U.S. yesterday. He also briefly mentioned that there was another shooting that happened in a church he used to go to. For some reason, it just didn't connect with me. I remember mumbling a random oh-my-gosh but it just didn't sink until I actually visited the church's website today.

Can you imagine that? Coming from a worship service, staying a little while for a Christmas party at church, getting out of the building ready to get on home to rest, then facing a man with a gun pointed at you, shooting you dead. And all this happens in what you thought was the safest place in the world.

I'm just too stunned right now to say something that makes sense.

It is violent. It is frightening. It upsets me that someone would kill randomly. It could've been me. It could've been you. It could've been anyone of us.

Learning about this news made me remember:

Truth #1: The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. We have an enemy. He is real and he will do anything, use anything, no matter how depraved, no matter how senseless, no matter how cruel.
Truth #2: Jesus said: I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. No life given to Jesus Christ is ever lived in vain. Even in death, God's purposes always prevails. And in death comes the promised life everlasting.

Thank God for that.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

From us to you

Check out our christmas dance!

Advance Merry Christmas!